Best Wishes For A Very Good Friend..

November 19, 2008


Dear Ignes,

Just wanna say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST FRIEND, IGNES MESSYTA.

"..Turn the lights down low, make a wish and blow your candle.."

Hey you are legal dude!! Finally the Glorious 21 is coming to youuu, so old meh hahahha. Anyway, i wanna say good luck in every way you choose, and especially good luck for your exam tomorrow. Wish you all the very best in your life, hope you have much joy and happiness, and success in every step you take.. Sorry i'm not giving you some surprise today, hahahaah but tomorrow i bet you, 19/11 is gonna be your day yah.. Lastly, once again, all the very very best, nes.. Have a great one yah.. Gbu. See ya tomorrow after your exam. Gonna have some fun, ok! =)

NB: Don't be sad ya Nes, cos this place is waiting tomorrow nite!! HAHAHAH

guess what? guess what? hahah.

I'm done then.. Once again, Happy bday to you , Ignes..

cheers.

EXCITED!!!!! FINALLY. YES I BELIEVE GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END. THANKS GOD =D

MANNNN!!!

I DON'T EVEN CAN SAY ANYTHING EXCEPT EXCITEDD!! WOOHOOOO.


You know what, my friend just called, and he ask me to join him watch TENNIS LIVE babyyyy!! How awesome is that? Shit, we have a front row free ticket from his friend.. Oh thank you so much, Meor. You make my friggin day! HAAHAHA

This Guy will play in front of my face.. goshhhh. yes, Federer, Blake, McEnroe, and Borg will rock the field baby!!


Roger Federer, im waiting for yaa.. hahah


My Life seems so much better and getting better and better.. For God Sake, Ohh Goddd, i love you.. lol. I believe good things come to an end, and me, i was just waiting for almost 3 fuckin month, wait for a miracle to come, to make my life better at least a bit, and ohhh hell yeah, it comes really soon, sooner than i thought. What an awesome life i have man. Back to you, God. =)


So i wanna tell you some more what's been happening. I just dyed my hair a bit lighter (not so like what i was expecting) from black to brown, but yeah it seems pretty fresh. At least i feel that way, i don't care what peoples think. lol. and been 2 days i think black is not a good-luck charm for my hair color, yeh i dont' care, i'm so fckn superstitious. haha so i just keep thinkin positive, and i hope God will give me so much better day than now. So far i'm so happy with my new life now.. No more regret, no more..


This week is the week that i'm waiting for. So much things will goin on, and i can't wait for those. Living my life to the fullest mannn. But yes tomorrow will be a bit busy day, cos my friend have some bday party that i have to attend, and the coolest thing is i haven't buy any gift yet, argghhhhh im so out of an idea now. Just wanna have some good time, think about my self, no more others. shit. I think i cant think about my own life, or someday maybe. Watever lah. Lets see.


I guess im out now, i gotta prepare my self to see the TENNIS EVENT!! yeahhhhh.. I LOVE IT!!


Gotta go.


cheers.

NO IDEA AT ALL

As usual, can't sleep. But yeh, today is such a great day for me.. Finally Boim is back, and ya i did so much things (not so so-much things actually) than other days past. Umm Just thinking about something, actually my friend's bday on November 19. Doddeeee, I'm totally out of any idea, feels like my brain is freezing.. hahaha seriously blank. I don't know what i wanna do for the surprise and also about the gift, totally fckn BLANK!!

So yeah 1 more day, even minus 24 hours, i think i'm gonna die, hahaha cos i don't know what i wanna do. Shit. HAHHA just go with the flow ey..


Any good idea? Feels like i'm talking to my self. Such a dumb-ass. Aite then. Gotta sleep.

TTC-ING MODE : ON =D

Random. Random. TTC-ing. Laugh. Smile. Joking. Fool.


HAHAHA just had some interesting conversation with my best in Jakarta. At least i still can laugh, smile and so much more. I had fun, cool conversation and of course discussed something actually this is my favorite topic, its all about Love, nothing else. HAHAHHAH. Arkyy i miss you, come here sooner dongg.. HAHAH i think Arky is a bit busy with 'that' photo stuffs. LOL. And She found me listening Hate that I Love You song, over and over again. Stupidly i didnt turn off 'What Im Listening To' on my Msn messenger. So yeah. Gottchha! Hhahahaha.



Alrite. Gotta Go.. Yes. To Sleep. You know i'm a bit anti social in a while. But tomorrow is the new day and the new me. Yeahh.. Gotta get some sleep. Before that i guess i have to say thank you to Arky, for making my fckd up day to be so much better.. HAHAHHA Thanks for being my new dangdut partner ky.. hahahah enjoyy my present ky.. hahhahaha.



Boo You.

Maybe Your Magic Won't Affect Me Anymore. Think So.

Some random things irritated my mind lately.. You know what it feels when you just can keep everything inside? It hurts dude.. I swear.. This day, Today, i think i have to write the details for my history, about today. Actually it's Monday, November 17, 2008, maybe around 1.04am, 15 minutes ago, i finally can say, from today and so on it's gonna be my unforgettable day of my life. Why? cos i never told someone about my feeling inside, but i have a reason for that. You know i just don't wanna hurt people's feeling, cos i know fact and truth is killin. But yeh, one of my best friend ever told me, ''You're nothing if u cant face the truth, and accept the fact"- STC. Thanks btw dude, finally it works in my mind, and i can apply that in my real life. I don't know what i was thinkin when i cant take my feelin anymore, i was like so fckd up the whole day, thinking, thinking, full of thinking, and then my mom called, and i don't know why, i was like missing mom so much.. and i cant help my tears. Dammit, why do i have to cry while i was on the phone with mom. Shit.
Next, i was messing around in my room still, foolin around with things, and yeah dying with my lovely ciggs and laptop that i cant live without. U stuffs are my very best friend. Yeah sorry out of topic. Yep so i was deciding to let someone know about my feelin inside. Note : Not like feelin' like i have a crush or 'love' and those other kind of thing, but actually i think someone was treating me like a crap. And im so fckn tired of it, and i'm done with it. I didn't even know why my emo attitude is so on currently. So yeah i decided to say directly by text msg, i thought this way is better, i was not looking for some argument, so better use this way ey, and the text msg that i have sent is up to 10 links, hahahah i know, wtf? i was like.. where the fck this words came from? Words from God. HAHA. I guess that's what i have to say.. Better hurts but live in the truth, then livin in a lie, like i was. It felt like pain in the ass, really.

I guess just enuf just wanna share what i feel now. Yeah kinda guilt but i think i have to be honest. Sometimes peoples hurt you, they don't even care about your feelin, so i was learning to be honest with my feeling. Sorry my friend, i have to say the truth. Don't you get it wrong ya, i'll forgive you as always alrite and i'm so sorry about that also ya. Chill ok. Everything's gonna be fine sooner or later. I had enuf for now. It's time for me to chill a bit and figuring out what i wanna do tomorrow. I'm sick of my room, no social life, and so much tears.

Guess i have to say goodbye for sadness and painful day of my life. Hope tomorrow i can work my ass off to go somewhere or do something.


Night.

Insomnia. How Dare You?

BOOOO!!!! it's 10.15 Am NOW..



Mehhh.. What a fckn tired day.. Just went to Republic Bar last nite, got back home around 4am minus. Just had some drinks and a bit conversation with some friends, and had a late super. Whoooaa, i cant stand this anymore, insomnia.. oh insomnia.. How dare you? Time shows, its 10.15am and i still cant sleep. WTF???? ARGGHHHH pleasee im cravin to sleep but my eyes are not so friendly. DUDEE seriously i need some painkillerrrrr.. or i just kill my self better huh??

So, yeah just checkin my fb account again and again until i'm dying bored. And finally update this blog hopefully after this, it's gonna be my sleeping time.. Just go wherever you want, insomnia.. Cause if u just don't go, i cant stop thinking about you-know-who object that irritates my mind so freakin much lately..


Fin.

Faces That I Miss The Most...

These are the faces that i miss the most ;



Arkinia Rachmadiyani.


Ignes Messyta.


Citra Laras Kinanti.


Deny Zang.


Adriansyah Jaya.


The 73.



We live together, in the same place, but i believe we are all have different path, different race, different view, different character, different city, different country, different thoughts, different point of view, and so on. But God created us as a human, to live with one another, make friends, help one another, and also complete each other. You meet new peoples, make friends, get closer and stuffs. I believe we live in this world, you must have some peoples that mean so much to you, peoples that you adore so much and comfortable with, peoples who always there for you, peoples that you can lean on to, peoples that you count on to, peoples that you share every moment with, peoples that you can't live without, and they are the people that you love..

There are people in your life who've come and gone. I know how it feels when you lost people that you love, people that means so much to you. It hurts to know that maybe they have to go to another place, maybe they found some new peoples that they comfort with, sometimes they let you down and you cant resist, cause you know they hurt your pride. I think you got to put it all behind you, cause life goes on. Not forget but not to get stuck rite? Cos if you keep carryin anger, it will eat you up inside.

Back to 2 months ago until now, i think i learned so much things about friends stuff, life, and hard times. Almost 3 months i felt really down, fckd up, in every way, like school stuffs, i lost my bestfriends, homesick, and so on. But when i think back now, i guess this is the best time in my life, when i really have my quality time to enjoy my own life, spend time with my closest friends, and do something new for the better. I'm learning and learning.

All the things I thought I'd figured out I had to learn again. I've been trying to get down to the heart of the matter, but my will gets weak and my heart is so shattered but I think it's about.. Forgiveness. Its all about forgiveness people. I mean not just forgive someone that made a mistake to you, what i mean is you can forgive every single thing that people did to you, just let it go, just learned from it, just forgive them even though they're not askin for it, and eventhough they dont love you anymore or whatsoever. Make your heart feel free. No revenge, no angriness, or something like that. That's what im learning now.. Forgiveness.


Anyway,
Those person above are my very special friends. Those faces that i miss the most. Who gave me so much memories that i always miss. Some of them is still here, but yeah maybe have a new good life or something, thats not my business anyway, and some of them had to go, with all different reasons, so sad to know that. I just hope you all, always get what you're dreaming of. All the very best for the future. You know i always love and miss you guys.. ='(
Thanks for every single thing and every single memories, and i beg you forgiveness, if i ever hurt you, you all know i never mean to. You know guys, you're all still mean so much for me, and you all always have a special place in my heart.. God bless You All.. Love you all as always.



This is my special dedication for you, for all those persons above..

Random Words To Wish You Luck, Bestie.

Hey Mel, u might not see my blog,but yeh watever. A Small Words For The Biggest Luck Sob!

Just wanna say goodluck for your exam tomorrow to one of my bestest, Melisa Suciati. I know its been a tough year for you, so i wish u all the very best, do great tomorrow yah! After that u gotta work ur ass off dude, so much work to do, event, and also ur singin career. Tomorrow we gotta have some fun yah, a bit refreshing okayy! Finally, All the very best, Mel. U're always in my prayer..


-densdomb.

Sign that It's Love, Love, Love.

Signs that It’s Love, Love, Love


You’ve got butterflies, good conversation, maybe even great sex (i think this is kinda too far, but i bet u guys like this huh? LOL), but sometimes it can be difficult to be sure if it’s love. How do you decipher whether the feeling in the pit of your stomach is the nervous quivering of anticipation or yesterday's lunch? Luckily, i got the sources knew that “fools in love” are easy to spot. Here are some tell-tale signs that it just be might be love, love, love.

You are best friends. You laugh with them more than anyone else. The feelings of anticipation, passion, and connection are mutual. You remember little things about each other like their favorite foods, the places they want to visit and why, their views on everything from politics to fashion, and what they love about their closest buddies, or even their past, but is it enough for you to know??

Take a look at these signs to be sure..

What he’ll do:

• Put you on his “A” list (pay attention -- You'll know if you're not on it)
  
• Introduce you to his family
  
• Make plans for the future (near and far)
  
• Do things outside of his “box” with you
  
• Share his secrets and his dreams for the future with you
  
• Worry about impressing your friends
  
• Come right over when you ask him to
  
• Try to do things that comfort you or relieve some of your stress (like surprise you with dinner on a night you are working, rub your feet, or ask about your day)
  
• Appreciate and reciprocate your feelings and your actions like giving you a massage after he gets one from you, doing the dishes after dinner, or sending you a gift

What she’ll do:

• Share her embarrassing moments and fantasies with you
  
• Little things all throughout the day that let you know she’s thinking about you
  
• Fantasize about her life with you, getting married, having kids, growing old, traveling the world, etc.
  
• Tease you
  
• Hang out with your mother or talk to her on the phone
  
• Appreciate and reciprocate your feelings and your actions, like offering to pay for dinner, getting tickets to a game or event she knows you’ll love, or cooking for you
  
• Ask questions about your life -- past, present, and future
  
• Flirt with you

How you’ll feel:

• Excited, yet relaxed
  
• Vulnerable, yet strong
  
• Comfortable enough to be yourself in front of them
  
• Like you want to include them in everything (but you won't desert your usual crowd to be in a relationship with them)
  
• You’ll miss them when they’re not around
  
• You can’t wait to see them, talk to them, play with them, and kiss them
  
• You’ll find yourself wanting to make plans to have them all to yourself
  
• You’ll have urges to do romantic things (maybe on the verge of stalker-like things) that you never thought you’d never do

Signs that it’s not love:

• They blow you off or cancel dates
  
• Talking about commitment makes either of you uneasy or nervous
  
• Either of you are seeing other people
  
• Things are moving too quickly for one of you
  
• You find your partner lacking when compared to other people
  
• You watch a love scene in a movie or hear a love song and you feel a strong longing or desire for what you don’t have

Tips before you commit:

• Take the time to compare who you have with who you know deep down that you desire and deserve. Likewise, compare the relationship you have with the one you know you really want.
  
• Pay attention to how they treat their friends, family, business associates, and strangers. This is a good indication of how they will treat you over time and a big insight into their overall character.
  
• Ask yourself how well you know them and how well they know you.

Hows that?? Satisfy enough? Well i guess this pretty cool.. Ummm, i think that's enough for today.. Maybe next time we find something good to share ya.. So now what u gotta do is find out, then get ur love one, don't let them fly away from ur life, cause now you know exactly what you feel aite? HAHAHHAHA see yaaaaaa...




Special dedication for Fitria Anindita Putri.

Some Words from a Very Best Friend...

Nearly 2007 before i came to Malaysia, one of my special friends gave this letter to me...

Time flies, Life goes by..
It seems only yesterday when i met this best friend of mine

She's her mum's baby
She's not even seventeen
yet she can get so tipsy
more than any other teen

Her life is all about drinks and ciggs
She doesn't realize that life is too brilliant to waste
Because she still can go to some gigs
and rarely on her friends for new things she never taste

She holds a platinum card
She drives a fancy car
But thats not the reason why she's in my heart
it is all about her Affection this far

She's gonna leave me in a while
it kills me, im gonna die
She's one of my dearest pal
but im just too shy to cry

I pray if one day i become a geek
with no proper life to fill
She'd still kiss me on my cheek
and say : '' Hey Babe, Lets chill!! "
I guess i'd just say : " You know baby, you've never change =) "

Thats the way she is
a true best friend anyone could ask for
I beg you, Lord, on bended knees
to keep her blessed more and more..

" Thank you for being a really great friend of mine, i wish u all success in every single thing you do.. and i keep you in my prayers that you'd stop smokin and live a healthy life one day "
I Love You!!
- Citra Laras Kinanti.



Hey dude its been almost 1 and a half year we're miles apart.. umm i hope u doin great right there, and i'm wishing u all the best for everything u do.. As this letter that u gave for me last year.. hahhha i cant even say anything, totally speechless.. anyway thank u for ur support and those words that u gave me.. thanks for loving me for the way i am.. U are such a great person.. and thank you for taught me everything, and ur point of view and so much more.. Anyway, u know what, I just believe the words WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND.. Umm sorry I've made such a fool mistakes.. I know thats sucks, what a pain in the ass i was.. But u know deeply in my heart i never mean to.. now i get my own karma.. Hahhahahahha dammit. Anyway.. All i can say is just thank u, thank u and thank u, and so Sorry about that stuff ya. Maybe word is not enough to tell u how lucky i am to have u as a best friend, and someone who inspired me so much in my life. You always have a special place in my heart.. Always.. Thank you for the love, words, patient, and never ending support that u gave me.. Hope God and His Angels will guide u and light ur way in everything you do.. Ameen.. One more thing, No need to worry cause i'll never change, this is who i am, someone that u can count on anytime u need.. Take Care there, Love you as always! =)

Thank you so much Ra.. ill keep those words always in my mind.. Good Bless You, Rara Kinanti.